Avoidance

I need to avoid going home for fear of becoming a plaything for my parents to torment relentlessly, with their endless questioning and belittling. I need to avoid their demanding of progress, (or what they consider progress) and of their overbearing qualities. I just need to figure out what I am doing that will not coincide with what the majority of the family is doing. As much as I like the food at family dinners, I must avoid them at all costs. I feel as though this must be done, because otherwise I will be trapped within the bounds of bad conversation and a sort of insincere cordiality that is appropriate between parent-son relations. I will most definitely be expected to spew about my future and my progress at school, which I feel was once interesting and compelling, but also , due to the study and exhaustion of the subject matter in class, will only further increase the pointlessness of the subject. The fact that they expect this from me will also be a burden. Expectation from family causes me stress which is the opposite of what "vacation" signifies. I must continue on a real break, that though free and liberating from everyday struggle, will be positive and productive. I can only ask one thing from the great Buddha that I like to think answers my prayers, and that is to promise as little judgment from family as humanly possible.
That is all.